Success is Having; Excellence is Being

It seems like we’re taught from an early age the exact opposite though, I think I was. Or maybe it was that success and excellence are synonymous and you should therefore acquire as much as possible. I’ve acquired a lot of shit; literally that’s really what I got. Sometimes I find it hard to stop having and just being; lately I’ve been really struggling with it. I think that it’s a self fulfilling prophecy in that when I’m not “being excellent” I’m trying to fill a void by having more, then I look successful so it’s easier to ignore being excellent. It’s a viscous circle -- like a merry-go-round that never stops; it doesn’t even slow down enough for me to jump off. I’d like to know what it’s like to just be. Be me. Be free to enjoy whatever is at that moment. Be happy that things didn’t go my way, or be even happier that they went yours. If you stop and think about it, being is a lot simpler than having; so why do we work our asses of to have when all we have to do is relax to be. What a trick. What would happen if I didn’t get anything for one month; not acquire one thing for a whole 30 days. Could I even do that? I’m not talking about starving myself or buying gas to drive to work. I’m talking about having things, additional things that don’t get consumed or used; kinda like that movie Brewsters Millions. I think that movie said a lot more than people gave it credit for. What would happen if I wasn’t successful for one month, just 30 days of my life all I did was be and not have. It just seems so strange, but I’m going to try. In every situation I’m going to deny having something and if I can’t deny it, I’m going to write down those where I am forced to “have” something for whatever reason and I’ll post it here. An experiment, I wonder how it will go?